Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplacable spark. In the hopeless swamps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all, do not let the hero in your soul perish and leave only frustration for the life you deserved, but never have been able to reach. The world you desire can be won, it exists, it is real, it is possible, it is yours.

Saturday, March 20, 2010


I make lists and schedules to calm myself.
Of course if I dont accomplish my lists Im left feeling more anxious and overwhelmed than I did to begin with...
But writing things down gives me a sense of control, so its worth the risk.

Worst night ever last night... Nothing but drama, it ended with me alone in my bed falling asleep to Casablanca at 1am. Im attempting a 2 week detox from the night life (do not let this be confused with an alcohol and substance detox) It is a detox from clubbing.
This week we are moving, it will be busy and stressful, I want to save money and buy new things for the house. I may buy Vogue living and become an interior decorating enthusiast.

Next weekend is my birthday, I would appreciate it being completely ignored.

Ben threw out my favourite scrubbing brush that has detergent in the handle cos he said it looked "manky". I had a pack of re-fills for it under under the sink.

Im really hot and uncomfortable. Hopefully the new apartment will have a nicer climate.

Enough of this time wasting blogging, back to writing lists.
Then maybe try actually doing the things on them.

1 comment:

  1. i will only celebrate your unbirthday and we will do whatever you want including moving house and decorating :D