Drowning again.
In the early hours of the morning I stumbled across my current phone/internet bill. It is usually $150 a month.... the total for this month is $550. I dont know how this happened? Somehow on Tuesday the 16th of February I used downloads that totalled $136... in one night? But how? Why... Why now... Why me? The story of my life.
Also $1100 car insurance due.
$270 quarterly energy bill direct debited from my account today.
$300 rent due Monday.
Please note, I actually dont give a shit about money. My frustration here has nothing to do with money, its purely about my lack of control and inability to stand on my own 2 feet. I dont want to be dependent on anyone. I want to prove I can look after myself. I need the reassurance and confidence. I need to know that Im ok on my own and that I can look after myself.
Right now I feel powerless and unable to cope.
Cant keep my head above water.
(thank you le love)
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