Happy...?

The word is so foreign to me in so many ways.... most of the time I wonder if Ive ever been happy or if I will ever experience happy in my future?

But today for the first time in a long time I feel happy. Not just temporarily happy, like Im on holidays happy, or Im under the influence of a substance happy... I think I was genuinely, and naturally happy?

I had an incredibly empowering meeting without my boss the included the word raise ($$$) in it, and I feel particularly inspired.

This was especially motivating after spending an hour participating in compulsory counselling talking about all sorts of traumatic things... I was overwhelming depressed this morning then somehow my entire day backflipped. So thank you God and the greater universe for everything.... really.... thank you. I needed that.