Going under.

Drowning again.

Just as I was about to come up from air...

In the early hours of the morning I stumbled across my current phone/internet bill. It is usually $150 a month.... the total for this month is $550. I dont know how this happened? Somehow on Tuesday the 16th of February I used downloads that totalled $136... in one night? But how? Why... Why now... Why me? The story of my life.

Also $1100 car insurance due.

$270 quarterly energy bill direct debited from my account today.

$300 rent due Monday.

Please note, I actually dont give a shit about money. My frustration here has nothing to do with money, its purely about my lack of control and inability to stand on my own 2 feet. I dont want to be dependent on anyone. I want to prove I can look after myself. I need the reassurance and confidence. I need to know that Im ok on my own and that I can look after myself.

Right now I feel powerless and unable to cope.

Cant keep my head above water.

(thank you le love)

The Pinnacle of Life

The Sydney social pages...

BTW... Im joking. I just love the costume!

The City of Blinding Lights.

So this week I have not associated with the world (outside of work and my apartment that is)

My complete inability to understand the term "time management" forced me into a stressful situation I have not felt since high school. But as I sit here at 4:45am after working a 40 hour week I do feel accomplished... quite proud of myself.

I feel I can now slowly return to a normal range of sanity, or insanity in my case? Either way it is manageable. Time to stop being self involved and miserable.

In saying that however it would be wonderful if the world could just stop for me when Im slowly drowning in self pity, if not the entire world could Paris fashion week have slowed down just a little? Struggling to catch up with the motions, so deal with the random image dump of new things I found in the last 8 minutes!

Whoops

Post from Wednesday that my internet held hostage.

Took on a a little too much... (although when some commitments were made I wasnt working a 40 hour week)

On the bright side I surprised myself by completing over 3 hours of uninterrupted book work this evening. At the end of the day I work well under pressure and cannot let myself or others down, even if it nearly kills me.

So excuse me being a stranger this week, I am drowning in stress.

Kirsten

My favourite actress.

Blank

I have no imagination this week.

Not a single original thought in my head.

Uninspired and lethargic.

Sorry for lack of personality and blogging.

Laa dee daa..

Boo for Mondays... Need to stop wasting my entire day off sleeping.

All around good weekend but, started out a bit rocky but we found a way to come through with the goods in the end.

Don't we always?

Looking forward to being paid, there wont be much of anything done until that happens.